Hello people :) It's Sunday! :( but I am kinda of bored. There isn't any many holiday activities for me. I guess it would again be a very boring holiday though examinations are over. Also because MY holidays are boring, I tend to think a lot-- not logical ones and those logical ones.Sigh... I kept wondering about my examination results (It really makes me worry) and also my future career, my future husband, my future babies and etc. I really think a lot huh. This is when someone has nothing better to do and 整天发白日梦. After I enter into relationship, I started to feel that I kinda of like children. In the past, I am one who is very scare of children especially when they cry. I will be like oh dear.....straight away faint. haha:) That sound exaggerating but I think it's quite true. Currently, I start to like kids because they are cute but there are still some fear in me especially those kids that 被宠坏 , I think I won't be able to take it. Anyway, let's change topic :) last Friday was Hari Raya Puasa, dar and I went to Parkway Parade to have a mini steamboat for lunch and after which we went to East Coast Park to rent bike and cycle from one end to another. It's was fun, it's the first time I went cycling with dar even though it was drizzling and here and there and we were obstructed by the rain. We walked under the rain together and kiss under the rain. That's something I really enjoyed:) It's kinda romantic I feel. I like romantic stuffs and I believe it is not just me but also all the women out there. 其实我是一个很容易满足的人，为我做一点点小事我就开心 :) 有时候，我要的开心不必用钱买来的。。。Actually, there are still many things I haven't do together with my dar. For example, go to Marina Barage and fly kite together(in fact, I have never been to Marina Barage). go Singapore flyer together go barbecue with dar,etc. I wanted to do them but money and time are some issues. I think let just take things naturally... Anyway, my dar will be going for training camp starting from tomorrow so I will be at home for 3 days since nobody ask me out also... Boring holidays...
It's been a long time since I blogged, anyway, I had my final examinations and I screwed up most of them:( It's terrible. I wonder how am I going to face my parents... I think most of them I will scoring a B+, INFA I had to score A+ since I already have the background already. As for Business Law, I think I will probably only get B- :( I forgotten a lot of simple stuff like definitions. Everything just went blank when I attempt to do the questions. Sigh... I really want to score close to GPA of 3.8 but I guess, I don't even have to think about it. All the modules that I have taken requires me to memorise. Everyday memorise made me feel so tired. In addition, they don't even allow us to have at least 1 day to rest after every module been examine. First 3 days of the examination, I already had 3 modules completed. I would say this is the first time I really felt so tired after examination and really wish that it's over. As time passed, the higher the education qualification, the tougher it is. I admit that poly final examination is more stressful than taking O levels. Many of my friends said that it doesn't determine anything, it's not the end anyway. However, I personally feel that I should have a very good start and I will end my poly life with a very happy ending:) I want to do my best, I want to do my parents and boyfriend proud. Sometimes, I am really stressed about it, even though my parents did not mention about anything when I am studying or having my examinations, after the examinations, if I did badly, I am sure going to get scolding from them. In a way, it is an indirect kinda of pressure for me. I really hope that I can enjoy the holidays, I want to go out and play even though Singapore is small. I know that it is impossible for me to go overseas or even JB. How I wish this holidays I can don't find work and everyday go out with my friends and boyfriend. I know that it's impossible so don't think about it. Life is sometimes meaningless, I feel... Maybe when I grow up as in like when I reach my twenties I will start to feel like life is pretty okay. It's still long till I grow old, it's just the beginning and I am still a child and always a child. Even if one day I turn into an adult, I will still be a child in my parents eyes and there will always be boundaries. Sigh...sometimes saying the same old things is also very tiring. No matter what I do, it's still the same.
你可以sayang 我吗？我喜欢这个， 那个，还有那个，可以买给我吗？ 我希望有时你可以给我一些小礼物，哄我开心，可以吗？ 我也喜欢一些小惊喜，但`我最喜欢被你的朋友，家人，亲戚认同 我是你的女朋友，可以吗？你一定说不，就给我一个很压力的表情。。。我知道你的要说什么，我知道。。。我知道。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我觉得我的人生很没有乐趣。有时，我在想我努力是为了什么呢？文凭？有许的女生，努力读书， 靠到好的文凭，找到好的老公就结婚了。然后有了孩子，就继续教孩子， 管孩子。文凭最后没这么用到。
After so many days, I saw you looking so upset and frustrated. I am also upset about it and not feeling good too.I have decided to let this matter off. I don't want you to get stress because of this. I am giving up. Since, you don't want to say, then don't say. I have no control over you, I don't want to be too demanding to you. Anyway, I have never have high standard when choosing boyfriend. As long as you really love me and treating me well. I am okay already. Though sometimes I hope you will open the door for me, help me carry my things, I didn't really mean it. I never say my boyfriend must be very charming/ handsome like Kim Hyun Joong, as talented as Jay Chou or Show Luo, very rich or own a car. I never say my boyfriend must be very tall. All I said was my boyfriend must first love me, that's the most important thing, secondly must treat me well, thirdly, must not drink, smoke and gamble. Fourthly, must be smarter than me (which is very easy because I'm stupid) That's all! 一个人烦恼，伤心，难过，好过两个人一起难过。
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