淡淡的爱

最近感触比较多。。。

2010-09-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

Hello people :) It's Sunday! :( but I am kinda of bored. There isn't any many holiday activities for me. I guess it would again be a very boring holiday though examinations are over. Also because MY holidays are boring, I tend to think a lot-- not logical ones and those logical ones.Sigh... I kept wondering about my examination results (It really makes me worry) and also my future career, my future husband, my future babies and etc. I really think a lot huh. This is when someone has nothing better to do and 整天发白日梦. After I enter into relationship, I started to feel that I kinda of like children. In the past, I am one who is very scare of children especially when they cry. I will be like oh dear.....straight away faint. haha:) That sound exaggerating but I think it's quite true. Currently, I start to like kids because they are cute but there are still some fear in me especially those kids that 被宠坏 , I think I won't be able to take it. Anyway, let's change topic :) last Friday was Hari Raya Puasa, dar and I went to Parkway Parade to have a mini steamboat for lunch and after which we went to East Coast Park to rent bike and cycle from one end to another. It's was fun, it's the first time I went cycling with dar even though it was drizzling and here and there and we were obstructed by the rain. We walked under the rain together and kiss under the rain. That's something I really enjoyed:) It's kinda romantic I feel. I like romantic stuffs and I believe it is not just me but also all the women out there. 其实我是一个很容易满足的人，为我做一点点小事我就开心 :) 有时候，我要的开心不必用钱买来的。。。Actually, there are still many things I haven't do together with my dar. For example, go to Marina Barage and fly kite together(in fact, I have never been to Marina Barage). go Singapore flyer together go barbecue with dar,etc. I wanted to do them but money and time are some issues. I think let just take things naturally... Anyway, my dar will be going for training camp starting from tomorrow so I will be at home for 3 days since nobody ask me out also... Boring holidays...

Semester 1 is over

2010-09-10T09:41:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I blogged, anyway, I had my final examinations and I screwed up most of them:( It's terrible. I wonder how am I going to face my parents... I think most of them I will scoring a B+, INFA I had to score A+ since I already have the background already. As for Business Law, I think I will probably only get B- :( I forgotten a lot of simple stuff like definitions. Everything just went blank when I attempt to do the questions. Sigh... I really want to score close to GPA of 3.8 but I guess, I don't even have to think about it. All the modules that I have taken requires me to memorise. Everyday memorise made me feel so tired. In addition, they don't even allow us to have at least 1 day to rest after every module been examine. First 3 days of the examination, I already had 3 modules completed. I would say this is the first time I really felt so tired after examination and really wish that it's over. As time passed, the higher the education qualification, the tougher it is. I admit that poly final examination is more stressful than taking O levels. Many of my friends said that it doesn't determine anything, it's not the end anyway. However, I personally feel that I should have a very good start and I will end my poly life with a very happy ending:) I want to do my best, I want to do my parents and boyfriend proud. Sometimes, I am really stressed about it, even though my parents did not mention about anything when I am studying or having my examinations, after the examinations, if I did badly, I am sure going to get scolding from them. In a way, it is an indirect kinda of pressure for me. I really hope that I can enjoy the holidays, I want to go out and play even though Singapore is small. I know that it is impossible for me to go overseas or even JB. How I wish this holidays I can don't find work and everyday go out with my friends and boyfriend. I know that it's impossible so don't think about it. Life is sometimes meaningless, I feel... Maybe when I grow up as in like when I reach my twenties I will start to feel like life is pretty okay. It's still long till I grow old, it's just the beginning and I am still a child and always a child. Even if one day I turn into an adult, I will still be a child in my parents eyes and there will always be boundaries. Sigh...sometimes saying the same old things is also very tiring. No matter what I do, it's still the same.

2010-08-23T06:28:00.000+08:00

你可以sayang 我吗？我喜欢这个，那个，还有那个，可以买给我吗？我希望有时你可以给我一些小礼物，哄我开心，可以吗？我也喜欢一些小惊喜，但`我最喜欢被你的朋友，家人，亲戚认同我是你的女朋友，可以吗？你一定说不，就给我一个很压力的表情。。。我知道你的要说什么，我知道。。。我知道。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

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2010-08-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

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人生

2010-08-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

我觉得我的人生很没有乐趣。有时，我在想我努力是为了什么呢？文凭？有许的女生，努力读书，靠到好的文凭，找到好的老公就结婚了。然后有了孩子，就继续教孩子，管孩子。文凭最后没这么用到。

2010-07-31T18:29:00.000+08:00

I am glad that when I am sad or angry I have you with me.You will listen to me and hear all my long stories. Thank you blogger:D You are my good listener.

我放弃了，你赢了

2010-07-25T13:34:00.000+08:00

After so many days, I saw you looking so upset and frustrated. I am also upset about it and not feeling good too.I have decided to let this matter off. I don't want you to get stress because of this. I am giving up. Since, you don't want to say, then don't say. I have no control over you, I don't want to be too demanding to you. Anyway, I have never have high standard when choosing boyfriend. As long as you really love me and treating me well. I am okay already. Though sometimes I hope you will open the door for me, help me carry my things, I didn't really mean it. I never say my boyfriend must be very charming/ handsome like Kim Hyun Joong, as talented as Jay Chou or Show Luo, very rich or own a car. I never say my boyfriend must be very tall. All I said was my boyfriend must first love me, that's the most important thing, secondly must treat me well, thirdly, must not drink, smoke and gamble. Fourthly, must be smarter than me (which is very easy because I'm stupid) That's all! 一个人烦恼，伤心，难过，好过两个人一起难过。

2010-07-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

其实我已经把不愉快的事的抛到九霄云外了，但是你跟我说你怕，你不敢。我感到非常失望。你认为我很勇敢，什么都不怕，你是错的！我外表很坚强但内心其实。。。很胆小，摧落。我听到你这样讲，我又开始感到伤心难过。泪又开始流，我不知道我应该说你不认真，不仔细还是不爱我，因为每次我哭在你面前，旁边，你都不知道也不能安慰我。sigh...

我的心情。。。

2010-07-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

我的情形就像周杰伦的一首歌--我不配。当周杰伦被媒体或粉丝们看到，他的女朋友就得跟他分开，然后就各走各的。想跟他好好的吃一顿饭都不行。看个电影，还得坐得远远的。我能体会那女主角的心情，是多么的不好受。因为爱他说以不说，不埋怨。再加上，是因为工作的关系只好这样。但是。。。旧了，那女生一定会很伤心，很失望。我不要求你一定要特别浪漫，我只希望你的多来了解我的感受，了解我。我就心满意足了。我会给你时间，去多了解我。如果不能，到时才来看。。。
因为我爱你我才给你时间，因为我爱你，所以我忍下去，希望你会改。

我是谁？

2010-07-22T05:52:00.005+08:00

我有这么见不得人吗？为什么你就是不能骄傲得说我是谁? 我知道这对你可能没太大的分别，但我希望我会被别人认出我是谁谁谁。这样以来我跟前几个月的我没什么分。有时想起来还真是伤心啊！

爱,Love

2010-07-18T20:08:00.005+08:00

你问我什么是爱？我其实也不是很懂。我认为可能就是互相爱对方，要懂得包容对方的缺点，欣赏它的优点而且也要懂得忍耐。我觉得爱可以是很甜美，但也可以很可怕。其实。。。我也不知道自己想表达的是什么。我现在很烦，我不懂该不该跟他说我的心里话，我是很想说，但我怕我太直接然后给他压力。我该怎么办？有些时候我还真希望你懂得我在想什么。这样的话，我也比较容易表达我想说的话。。。

2010-06-26T19:48:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I blog,I would say I am both busy and lazy to blog.Well, 2 weeks holidays is going to come to an end.All because of human nature,I am definitely not satisfied the number of weeks of holidays. First week had camp,second week I had projects. I still want MORE!In a few days time, I will be receiving my result for three modules-INFA,MAEC and BLAW.I am wondering how well have I done but at the same time I am also quite afraid of looking at the results. I think that in my class, I am the most stupidest and student with no luck. Looking at all my classmates, they are so smart, some are diligent and some are those kinda of playful type but lady luck is always on their side.For me, I think I am the diligent one but not as hardworking as them, however, I would say I am not those playful ones.I am not surprise by the sudden pressure and stress that I have encounter. Since the start of the school, I already know that accountancy is a very competitive course, I already know that I am definitely not going to be within the top few students who can score very well. I would most probably be those students with average grades. However, I told myself this, nothing is impossible, when I get into Accountancy course in Ngee Ann Poly,I will study really hard and become the top few students again by starting from the stretch. Nonetheless, I still have doubt in what I've said. Sometimes,I wonder is going into accountancy the right choice for me.Life is getting harder, tutorial questions have been getting more difficult too(sigh) I think I should change my mindset first what's the point complaining and sighing right? Jacqueline, stop thinking about all that and just do your best, whether is it good or bad.Just faced it:)

2010-05-01T21:35:00.001+08:00

Do you know what I want?Do you know what I am wishing for?

protect me please:(

My first day of school:)

2010-04-19T15:55:00.004+08:00

The first day of school was quite interesting.I saw Qian Hui and her friend,Huda(not sure if this is how it spells) as I was walking up to LT38.We were attending the same lesson.During lesson,I sat beside her.I like attending Macroeconomic lecture:)Mr Lee is a very funny guy.Personally,I feel that he do make the whole lesson interesting and fun.There is so much laughter in his lesson.That's all for my first lecture in poly.After my first lecture,we went to Convention Centre(CC) to take a look at the CCA fiesta.At the CCA fiesta,I saw Shalala~hehe:)Ya,then after that we were hungry go we went Makan Place to grab a bite.During lunch,we saw Kai Ying,Ai Leen,PXY,Lettice and Qiu Jin:)It's like long time no see.After lunch,I still have some 2hrs break so I went to Atrium with Qian Hui to buy her Macroeconomic textbook.After which,I met this lady from Biomedical Science,she had problems looking at her timetable so I helped her:)Then I went to Co-op to buy my ACBL CD.After that,I went back to LT 38 to attend for my INFA lecture.INFA is more of the basic of accounting-POA Asset= Liabilities + OE Some people in the lecture hall took POA but there were quite many who didn't take.Though I have taken,I still have to listen because Mrs Chiu said that some things we learnt in Secondary School may look different from what we learn right now so we have to be flexible.Ya,so that's how I ended my day 1 in poly hehe:)Hope the rest of my days in poly will better each day:)

2010-04-13T14:35:00.002+08:00

6 MORE DAYS TILL SCHOOL STARTS:)

NGEE ANN POLY(ACCOUNTANCY)-N51

MIX FEELINGS...I don't know whether I will be able to adapt to that environment.I don't know whether I can score well.Feeling excited yet nervous.

Perfectionist

2010-02-10T07:19:00.002+08:00

I'm a perfectionst.I want everything to be perfect but that's impossible.Again because of that,I am very scare in making any decision and doing stuff which has high risk.I prefer to be slow and steady.I'm confused about my own feelings.I hope I make the right choice.我的心很烦！

Less than 2 days before receiving result

2010-01-09T21:02:00.003+08:00

It's going to be my third time receiving a major examination results.The first one is PSLE,then N level and now it's going to be O level result.I am worried,nervous.Though how many people comfort me and how much I try to calm myself down,I am still nervous.I am going to know it in around less then 2 days.I am sure I would cry.Even when my ex-classmate told me about it,I become very sensative.I just can't help myself to not thinking about it.That slip can just determine my future.I told myself since the day I received my PSLE result.I cried that night and promised to do well in Secondary School.I even promise to my late grandmother to do well and to get into university.I don't want to fail myself and for her.I think I deserve to achieve good results and hopefully everything goes well for me:)I am just worried about my English and E-maths.I dislike people saying negative about my results.I need some encouraging words than some discouraging ones,even though I know at times I have to be realistic.I want to PROVE to people I can do it!I want to show that Jacqueline Tan can do well and is no longer a weakling,I can study well too!Wish me good luck!:)

A busy week

2009-11-21T11:55:00.002+08:00

This week was indeed a busy week for me.On Monday,Sharizah and I went to look for jobs and from Tuesday to Thursday we had red camp in Ngee Ann Poly.Overall,it was fun.The first day was rather boring,we went to Info Com Technology(ICT).I got a chance to feel how it feels like to be a poly student.However,I am kinda afraid.As I sat into their class and listen to the lecturer.The lecturer seems to be very emotionless.He just say everything he need to say and the students were playing facebook and drawing.Simply ignoring his presence.I am not sure I would be like one of them.I think we need to have strong discipline in order to be able to concentrate in class.We also learnt the cheers and we scream so currently I am having a sore throat.

On the second day,we went to the Loft.It is nice and comfortable:)For Lunch,we had pasta with brownie:)HUrRay!It was scrumptious.After that,we get to see the stars from the POLO BOYS,FIRST CLASS & SPORTS SG.And just before we went home we learnt our mass dance:)It's cool and I love it<3

On the third day,we recap the dance we had learnt on the second day and continue the rest of the dance we have yet to learn and we also went to School of Chemical and life sciences.I get to inject a fake arm and manage to extract the blood and see how they deliver the babies and I even get to go into the operation theater in Ngee Ann Poly.I also get to see the 4 finalist in Singapore Idol.Yeah!!!:) Not forgetting the HOP NITE,they change the convention centre into a club haha:) and we dance like crazy people.We were damn high and we jump till our legs are in pain.It's like once in a life time.

On friday,we had Graduation Nite /Prom Nite.All of us dressed up very nice and for the first time I put on makeup.All thanks to Zhi Yin for helping me to put on the makeup:)We also have the lucky draw and our class win a lot of prizes.I won a Tupperwave.It's like so lol.I didn't expect to win.I was like so shock because everytime when they have lucky draw I always never win haha.But I had fun yesterday.We took many pictures and ate delicious foods.

What a enjoyable week:)

我回来了。。。

2009-11-13T10:07:00.002+08:00

今天我只想抒发我的情绪。每个人都想听到好听的话，谁不想。我已经很累了，我知道我长得不怎么样，难道这也是我的错吗？我也想打扮的美美的，但是我就是有点肉肉的，不能穿很多种衣服。我不想再被人家批评，我受够了！

Enjoyable trip to 3 places :)

2009-08-15T21:27:00.005+08:00

Hey everyone!It's after prelim and yesterday as I went back home I was bored so I have decided to go out with the girls.Therefore,today we traveled to Bugis,Plaza Singapura and Lot 1.When we reached Bugis we headed to Food Junction and had our lunch.After eating, we made our way to bugis street and all we do there was window shopping.There were many nice clothes but I need to save money for something else :x After shopping at bugis street,we went to Bugis Junction again and we had a dessert.It was scrumption

Soon after we eat,we went to take the MRT to Plaza Singapura.On the way there,we saw many ungracious people in the train.Some dig their nose,foreigners around 25-30+++ years old sat on the priority seat and was sleeping VERY soundly.Her other 2 friends were also talking loudly.In front of them is an old man,but they ignored what they saw.I gave them a stern look but it does not seems to have any effect.Very fast,we alighted at the station and we headed to Daiso.It is smaller than the one in IMM.Nothing much.After that,we travel back to Choa Chu Kang,Lot 1 we ate again but I ate 3 garlic breads,a bowl of soup and a drink.It was mouth-watering.Sha ate the same thing as me but with one more potatoes salads.As for Kai Ying,she ate the Pomodoro(wasn't sure of the spelling) and had a drink-ice lemon tea.Soon,we went to the Pasar Malam just beside the Mac Donald and looked at some of the clothings and in less than 45 mins we went home.It was a wonderful experience after a stressful period but it's not the end.There is another and the most challenging period that we need to endure-our GCE O level.I hoped that all Singaporeans should change the way they take the public transports and be a gracious and considerate citizens.

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2009-06-22T14:17:00.003+08:00

Should I be happy or sad?

I miss a chance.

I had no confident neither do I know where I want to go

Would it be better for me?

I wonder what my future will be like...

Hopefully I won't regret for letting it go

I am back!

2009-06-10T08:15:00.011+08:00

Actually we did not stay.We went home at around 8.30pm as many were going home.
By the way,Happy Birthday Erwin!
I enjoyed yesterday chalet very much and I believed all of us have lots of fun :)

Brand New Me <3

2009-06-09T08:00:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone!I am now re-blogging:)

Well today...I am having my chalet at Changi and I will be back by tomorrow.I will try to update often :)