It's been a long time since I blogged, anyway, I had my final examinations and I screwed up most of them:( It's terrible. I wonder how am I going to face my parents... I think most of them I will scoring a B+, INFA I had to score A+ since I already have the background already. As for Business Law, I think I will probably only get B- :( I forgotten a lot of simple stuff like definitions. Everything just went blank when I attempt to do the questions. Sigh... I really want to score close to GPA of 3.8 but I guess, I don't even have to think about it. All the modules that I have taken requires me to memorise. Everyday memorise made me feel so tired. In addition, they don't even allow us to have at least 1 day to rest after every module been examine. First 3 days of the examination, I already had 3 modules completed. I would say this is the first time I really felt so tired after examination and really wish that it's over. As time passed, the higher the education qualification, the tougher it is. I admit that poly final examination is more stressful than taking O levels.  Many of my friends said that it doesn't determine anything, it's not the end anyway. However, I personally feel that I should have a very good start and I will end my poly life with a very happy ending:) I want to do my best, I want to do my parents and boyfriend proud. Sometimes, I am really stressed about it, even though my parents did not mention about anything when I am studying or having my examinations, after the examinations, if I did badly, I am sure going to get scolding from them. In a way, it is an indirect kinda of pressure for me. I really hope that I can enjoy the holidays, I want to go out and play even though Singapore is small. I know that it is impossible for me to go overseas or even JB. How I wish this holidays I can don't find  work and everyday go out with my friends and boyfriend. I know that it's impossible so don't think about it. Life is sometimes meaningless, I feel... Maybe when I grow up as in like when I reach my twenties I will start to feel like life is pretty okay. It's still long till I grow old, it's just the beginning and I am still a child and always a child. Even if one day I turn into an adult, I will still be a child in my parents eyes and there will always be boundaries. Sigh...sometimes saying the same old things is also very tiring. No matter what I do, it's still the same.